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Steve and I talked this through later on, and I thought it might help to share that with you – it sorted out all those jumbled thoughts in my head. Hope I’ve remembered this right……

I’d thought maybe I shouldn’t even be thinking about a cig as an option. What really bothered me was the fact that a cig had even come to mind as one of the options to deal with what was going on. IDIDN’T actually want to smoke, it was that extra heavy `need to respond’, maybe, that had brought it to mind. This wasn’t the normal day to day stuff where the new and more appropriate responses kick in automatically. I didn’t have a tool to use to deal with this new situation, so maybe it was inevitable it would happen.

What I understand from this and talking it through with Steve is that it really is `ok’ to think about cigs and is to be expected. Eventually there won’t be any more nicotine associations, but at this stage, months (and for others days and weeks) into a quit, it is going to happen. The important thing is to be aware of the options and choose responsibly.

Hope all of you have a great Thanksgiving – we don’t celebrate it here in the UK but it sounds a wonderful time. Steve tells me he’ll be in a house full of women (around 6 Steve?) including mum and daughters. I suggested he wouldn’t get a word in edgeways – he said he would, the problem was that no-one would be listening to a word he said )